Dutch - Meaning of Unequipped текст песни

I realised today I should have invited you with me Every time I left
Every time I left
Left, I left, I left
I went away with a boy I admired
Then one day on the beach with no harbour
I wept for the water between us Wept 'cause I keep on leaving
I left, left
I wept, I wept
I’m crazy about a boy
I can’t seem to start again
I’m wild about a boy
I’ve never been so damn ignored
I made a terrible mistake
I can’t start again
I’m so hellbent on loving and leaving
All of a sudden there’s something
I’m craving for you to make me an honest woman
Make you my honest man
My man, my man