Irrational - Misery текст песни

I've created a mess, acted on feelings
Emotions will drive, but I'm not steering
I've damaged this, and it can't be repaired
I'm afraid I enjoy, misery too much
They felt like good reasons

It's time to face myself alone cause I've pissed off
The people who care the most
I don't know why I see things this way but I can't seem to stop
I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP
I feel tears for my anger and tears for my pain
I feel tears for my pride and I don't know why

Why this misery's mine
Why this misery's mine
Can't be the way that I want inside
But I strive and I strive and I strive

I've created a mess, and buried my feelings
Virtue is lost, and I'm not healing
I gracefully fake, a smiling face
Burned a hole in my chest, while trying my best
They felt like good reasons

It's time to face myself alone cause I've pissed off
The people who care the most
I don't know why I see things this way but I can't seem to stop
I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP
I feel tears for my anger and tears for my pain
I feel tears for my pride and I don't know why

Why this misery's mine
Why this misery's mine
Can't be the way that I want inside
But I strive and I strive and I strive

WHY?