Okkervil River - Numbers текст песни

It was not what I thought it would be.
I have made my mistake,
Now I come running to you
Like you said I would do.
It's so hard not to hide
Cause you're safe.

Now I need protection
From all the things I have made,
So I come flying to you
Like you swore I would do,
But there's only a stone
In your place.

Well, they said
I needed protection from life,
But it's over now.
Give me strength,
I need resurrection again,
Let it all come out.

They said "it's just minor surgery,
Just one tiny scar,"
But I drove home in my car
And it seemed like so far,
And the gas needle fell
Like a star.

Numbers come and they crowd me out
In a cloud above my head.
I fight each equation till it's dead,
Then I put them to bed
And I paw at the hole
In my chest.

How could you let me become this?
How could you make my small bones
Grow as tall as a tower?
Oh, take my power away,
I'm begging you
To take it away.

Hold my hand as you lay me down.
Reach into that jar,
Cause I am ready to restart,
And you can even stop my heart
If there's no going back,
No escape.

Well, they said
I needed protection from life,
But it's over now.
Give me strength,
I need resurrection again,
Let it all come out.