Sleeping pills can keep one drowsy
Shut out the angst and feel but nothing
Yet to find total closure for terrors of the past
A saddened man now entered the hospital at last
Ninth door to the left
Laid all answers to what had kept him drunk
For all those years
A gently knocking but no answer
Hesitated for a second
Then turned the knob and stepped inside
In front of him a well made bed
In it a woman sleeping, he pulled up a chair
So fragile and so helpless
He took her hand and held it And whispered in her ear
Edward
«My dear Ms. Sinclair, you are my mother and a whore of evil
How could you leave me there in that old church, why
My first vague memories of Father Dorian and me on my knees
He stole my boyhood early, him and the other priests
While preaching I was dirty and needed to be cleansed
Baptized my young face with soggy semen
Every evening while tears ran
Alternated with violent whipping in God’s name
I was a child of shame
Dorian, he sodomized my weak and childish body
The cross went inside my ravished rear end and bent me open
Those yellow teeth still haunt my dreams
Caged from daylight inside a cellar
He kept me locked up 'til pleasure he craved
I know God’s light is shining
But this molested soul will never see
A heaven that I am certain of My dear Ms. Sinclair
You are my mother and a whore of evil
How could you leave me there
In that old church, why
Then one night I noticed he’d forgotten
To lock the doors and I saw my chance
I sneaked out and ran off, foggy air
Morning dark, the grass was wet
I’d been there for so long, not sure of my age
The wicked Father D. may he burn in hell
You must die oh spiteful bitch, you put me there"
Slowly she opened her eyes and stared at him silent at first
Felt she was squeezing his hand, the wrinkly old hag
Ms. Sinclair
«My dear boy, my dear Edward let me tell you of your past
Please son ease down, sit down and listen to me
I was born where you grew up Daughter of Father Dorian
His line of blood runs deep
Deeper than you can possibly imagine
Night after night he robbed me of pride
Pleasing his need, a child of his breed that never could smile
Instead of playing with a dolly I had to play with him
In my mouth I can still taste his salt veiny skin
Barely fertile yet daily raped, his holy seed
Finally my girly womb managed to impregnate
My father, my lover had now made me a mother
As he delivered my baby I wept to God
I left the church right after my baby boy was born
I was replaced by my infant to be my father’s toy
That toy was you dear Edward and I’m glad I left you there
Our Father’s love for his children can never be compared"
Снотворные таблетки могут оставлять человека в сонном состоянии,
Заменять тревогу пустотой и безразличием,
Но полного избавления от ужасов прошлого не находилось,
И печальный мужчина наконец попал в больницу.
Девятая дверь слева
Скрывала ответы на все вопросы,
Почему он пьянствовал столько лет.
Легкий стук в дверь, но никакого ответа,
Он замедлил на секунду,
Затем повернул ручку и вошел внутрь.
Прямо перед ним стояла аккуратно застеленная кровать,
На ней спала женщина, он подтащил стул
Так хрупка и беззащитна,
Он взял ее руку и сжал ее
И прошептал ей на ухо:
Эдвард,
«Моя дорогая мисс Синклер, вы моя мать и блудница зла
Как вы могли бросать меня там, в той старой церкви, почему
Мои первые смутные воспоминания об отце Дориане и о мне на коленях
Он забрал у меня детство рано, он и другие священники
Проповедуя, что я грязен и нуждаюсь в очищении
Крестили мое юное лицо спермой
Едва способная к зачатию, я ежедневно насиловалась
Наконец моя девичья матка смогла забеременеть
Мой отец, мой любовник стал отцом
Когда я родила ребенка, я плакала перед Богом
Я покинула церковь сразу после рождения ребенка
Была заменена младенцем, чтобы быть игрушкой для отца
Той игрушкой был ты, дорогой Эдвард, и я рада, что оставила тебя там
Наш отец любил своих детей так, как не мог бы никто другой
Но он любил меня больше всех
И я знала, что когда-нибудь ты станешь его любимым
Привет, Эдвард, привет, мой сын»
1 | Solemn They Await |
2 | Swarm Of The Formless |
3 | The Forbidden |
4 | Inner Conflict |
5 | Eve Of Contempt |
6 | Dead & Grotesque |
7 | Uncle Damfee |
8 | Apparition |
9 | Deus Avertat |
10 | Where Angels Go Demons Follow |